evaluation

it's strange to come to understand
when i've been sure i knew
a thing not yet my own.

an untempered happiness stumbled upon me.
for certain, such never had before.
i know
because you had never held my hand before
and never wrapped me up inside your arms
to make me feel invincible and whole.

with you came fear
of an undiscovered kind,
a precious fear
of holding something valuable.

you make me care to lose.

lover's waltz

do you wanna dance?
will you wear my ring?
will you lay with me until the final bullets sing?

over our heads, over our heads
& a lover's waltz will turn until the end

will you marry me?
don't you want to spin?
will you run with me until the ground folds us within?

over our heads, over our heads
& a lover's waltz will turn until the end

& your shipwreck eyes, they sing to me
as we ride a killer whale across a diamond sea

over our heads, over our heads
& a lover's waltz will turn until the end

& i will hang for you
& you will hang for me
& the northern lights will take us in like refugees

over our heads, over our heads
& a lover's waltz will turn until the end

Mullen

i got married today.

all the world (i tell myself)

say that i've changed
say i'm different
maybe i finally understand
say i let go
say it's obvious
oh i tell myself over and over and over again:

i'm ready, i'm ready, i'm ready to believe
dah, dah, dah, dah...

so tell me i'm strong
tell me i'm weak
tell me i never, ever bend
tell me i'm fire
tell me i'm cold
cold, oh i tell myself over, over, and over again:

i'm ready, i'm ready, i'm ready to believe

and all the world can watch the choices you make
all the world can watch each tiny mistake
let the world watch, and let the world wait...
for you

so tell me i'm wrong
or tell me i'm cruel
tell me i fight
or tell me i fought for the wrong things

i'm ready, i'm ready, i'm ready to believe (x2)

correatown

merit

i haven't written myself down
for a while now...
that that need that i had
(to measure and quantify the tempest within)
has been so over-taken and replaced with
a simple peace.

it's like breathing without thinking.
it's not believing, but knowing.

i was whole before i noticed.
my vices and poisons are strangers now;
i can't remember why i loved them so.

hesitation

i'm juggling a taint i let in
to the good that came 'round.
reality begs i make a choice
and i know what i ought to do,
but still i refrain and hesitate.

it was simple to judge
the place he stood
until i stood there too.