it's strange to come to understand
when i've been sure i knew
a thing not yet my own.
an untempered happiness stumbled upon me.
for certain, such never had before.
i know
because you had never held my hand before
and never wrapped me up inside your arms
to make me feel invincible and whole.
with you came fear
of an undiscovered kind,
a precious fear
of holding something valuable.
you make me care to lose.
